So Many Questions, So Little Time
February 8th, 2010 by Angie Mizzellby Angie Mizzell
My husband is very supportive, but I could tell he was annoyed. Another weekend had seemed to disappear before it ever got started. I can’t remember the last time we spent an afternoon playing tourist in our charming historic city, browsing shops and stopping in a local restaurant for a late lunch and a glass of wine.
Today we have two children, a preschooler and a baby. I’m a stay-at-home/work-at-home mom, who like so many, is struggling and juggling, trying to balance my desire to work with my desire to stay home with my children. When I see a window opportunity to get some uninterrupted work done, I pounce on it. Unfortunately, those opportunities often fall on the weekends, when my husband is home.
My husband happily does his part; he’ll watch the boys so I can disappear anytime I ask. But I wonder if that’s really fair? If we’re passing them back and forth, what will that do to our marriage? My husband sees this as a short term issue. One day our sons will be in school and I’ll have more time to work from home.
On this particular weekend, I wanted to talk about it… to solve it right there in the middle of the den. But I decided to leave the conversation alone. He wasn’t angry, and neither was I. He wants me to have what I want; I don’t want my family to suffer in the process.
And I don’t want to rush this time. In the midst of my questions, I see how beautiful my life really is. When I obsess over doing in perfectly, I waste precious moments.
So I went into our bedroom and worked for a bit, and then I looked outside. The sun what shining. I wondered where everyone was. I found my husband and the boys in a open field across the street from my house. I decided to join them.
There’s an art to living in the moment… it requires trusting my intuition. And at that moment, even though I had plenty of quiet time to work, I decided to close my laptop, and go fly a kite!






